Garden of Eden

Just a couple of days ago I felt so much unrest because my accommodation offer letter was supposed to arrive via email on the first week of December. And it was the second already, omg. I can’t imagine if they so cruelly rejected my application, I’d really go ballistic. But a mere few hours later, I actually dreamt seeing the offer pack sitting right inside my mailbox, and guess what. It actually arrived yesterday, how deja vu right! Like finally, a room ALL for myself and no more worrying about sleeping on the streets. But hor, I can’t deny a slight twinge of disappointment when the type of room I was allocated wasn’t ticked next to the single en suite room. Ish, so un-glam (learnt this new word!).

Now if only Ms. June will reply my mail so I can get the annoying visa done.

Sometimes, fate can be surprising. And I never was able to comprehend its meaning quite comprehensively, but it’s starting to sound pretty realistic now. While I may be slowly starting to believe in something so ethereal such as destiny, I’d agree with Gweon Woo on how every effort taken is a step in building bridges of fate chances. More often than not, isn't it the only thing that one’s capable of doing in a case where we’d ever have so little control over?

Now I’m starting to regret a little. All thanks to that gold diggah -_-‘’. Well maybe all’s still good for you but sometimes I wondered if I could ever fathom how a yes can be no and vice versa. How a person could be (almost) everything to another, yet doesn’t get the equal gratification the person is offering. But then again, how exactly can it be equal? For something in which has no means of being measured? I feel like throwing all these to him so he’d be confused and actually take time to digest the meaning behind them. Just to buy time of course. As the saying goes ‘when there is no victory in sight, minimise losses’, lol. But just so you know, the mails are something I hold very closely to myself. That’s because they are all I’ll ever have.

Maybe 4 years down the road, you’ll begin to understand why. Just someday, someday aite. ;]

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