Garden of Eden

thank god i didn't fail any. i can't imagine the emotional turmoil i'd probably be subjected to if i did. not to mention how i'd be slaughtered by parents, haa. these are the times where, 'god' truly appears in my books. but nevertheless, must cast aside and lock away the triumphant slacker last sem.

i liked sushi more than i thought i would. i ate raw salmon, RAW! it may be pleasing for some to know, that i say sal-men instead of sah-mon or whatever. soft shell crab temaki's are so yummy, mmm. but spend so much on a meal, not thrifty at all hor. tsk tsk.

me liking Kachofugetsu a lot. i have a feeling we're gonna be more attached then i thought i would be. :]

look. its all getting better again. i'll get you that saloon trip before i leave okay? now, its really time to get my life back together. (disclaimer* - may this be the last time i tell myself!)

I was wondering one day exactly what tag have I been missing. In the archives I found this, 7 months late but well tadah :

• What is your favourite colour?

The time when colours meant identity, it would be the Power Rangers era. Mine would be green, haa. Other sources of inspiration would come from my granddad who apparently liked green so much, a green Mercedes was specially burnt for him at his funeral.

• Who is your idol?

As of now...right now I’d say Witwisit Hiranyawonkul, haa. Omg, I know, why such guilty pleasures right. But being so young yet still able to make it big has points to be admired. And he stuck with his band consisting of his old friends. Two more points for being humble to the roots. Continuing to work with a bunch of familiar peeps...I like that idea. Mmm, I do.

• What is your ambition?

I’ve always said I wanted to be an accountant for the sake of shutting others up. Though sometimes I envisioned myself being a teacher, which sounds pretty much like everyone else backup plan. But well, just so you know I’m now a chemical engineering undergrad branching into biotech electives.

• What would you do if you won a million dollars?

I think even though with so much money at hand, I might not splurge on buying stuffs. Truthfully there are many things that I wouldn’t mind having but priorities are there for a purpose, so I’d say a house, a car and the rest on financial securities. Not that I’m completely selfish and resent donations to charity, but I’d feel much better getting my life on track first and rid of all those worrisome loan payments. But...I guess it does warrant some impulse buying :].

• What will you do when you feel really emo?

Turn up the Indie music and snag some sweets for some precious me time. If there was someone near enough that I trust, so sorry for being the victim of me venting out, haa. But, you know how there are always tendencies to keep a little quiet and I’ll get caught up with thoughts. Because for all I may know, it’s just me really.

• What cheers you up for the rest of the day?

A pat and a thank you can go a long way. I don’t think anyone can agree less on being cared and appreciated for gets it going for the day, heck even the next day itself!

• Where is the place that you want to go most?

Korea, South to be exact, and that teddy bear museum they have...uwaa.

• What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

The people around me that I care for. But apart from that, my laptop with internet access and psp are also shallow requirements :].

• What are you afraid to lose the most right now?

My integrity, self righteousness and obviously THE most important thing in my life as well. Because without it life would be really empty.

• If you have one dream to come true, what would it be?

Sometimes dreams are just impossible (larh) and they stay that for the sole reason. What I can think of that has the highest probability of occurring is enjoying my bachelorhood with my Beagle in a nice and sophisticatedly decorated home, getting a job envied by many, then get hooked, family, happily ever after, yada yada.

• If there’s one thing in your life you want to do but yet unable to, what would it be?

Basically holding that trophy at Suzanne Lenglen, Rod Laver arena or centre court...either one would do. But you know, it stays a dream for a reason. It’s quite a pity because all our MLTA does is eat money and the opportunities deserving people should get. Apart from that, I’m missing an instrument and mastery of my mother tongue.

• What would you do if tomorrow was the last day of the world?

I think I’ll probably face a breakdown and go apologise to everyone on whatever misdeeds I have done. Give mom a big hug and tell her thank you for running over across that busy street to the convenience store just to get me that lychee packet drink which I could have so easily bought at the school’s canteen. Then go cuddle with the special one awaiting the meteor/asteroid to crash down on earth and burn us all. The catch is IF though, as far as I’m concerned today me playing Dota. Hee hee.

• What is the purpose of your life?

To be filled with the feelings of content-ness.

• At what age do you wish to marry?

I don’t feel like I’m 20 now but who knows 3-8 years later I’d be off to my honeymoon. Those years are a lot of time for progress, but perhaps 28 would be a really good number. Certainly NOT 21 to 23 la. I have this friend who wants to even have a child at that age and she’s 20 now. In which I told her, how behind time she was because she wasn’t even attached in the first place. Married, children, you haven’t even graduated la! Crazy ger. Farnee I tell you.

• What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?

Who doesn’t want that gorgeous smexy other half? Let’s be realistic here, it’s all overly hyped and much less fancier than its thought to be :P. In the end, what really matters most is (insert underlined italics from above).

• If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?

No initiative, no progress. You want it’s, then you gotta prove you really want it’s. Haa. But you know, HER confessing first wouldn't be too bad now isn't it? HAHA

• What will you do if you got rejected by someone you like?

Reset. Load. Restart at checkpoint. LOL! Okay lah, what I was trying to emphasise here is that there will be another shot to go for. Haa.

• If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?

45. This number has to go this year. Oh, I also always wondered what I’d become if I didn’t stay outdoors in the sun for so many years. Apparently I was quite the white white.

• List out three good things of the person who tagged you.

Eh this one I don’t have to. You shy so i save you the trouble. xD

• What type of person do you hate the most?

Oh, I never thought I could use this.
Externalities are aplenty everywhere, and I think I do a good job ignoring them most of the time. Actually, I believe I have no right to describe how hateful can someone be. Because sometimes it may feel a little hypocritical to say so, and for all I might know the person I end up hating later would be myself.

To be honest, I’d never have been more excited about an English movie since the Devil Wears Prada. In fact, in preparation for the release itself I actually decided to read the book! You know how I’d constantly surf and scurry about the forums after completing a movie/drama to ease them withdrawal symptoms, the same can’t be said about English shows which are lacking a complete loyal fan base. I like it because I’d be able to hear how others interpreted certain scenes and sometimes recalling their favourite ones where you’d go ‘oh, I know this one and that one too’ while playing the scene over again up your mind. And if that’s the case, re-watching wouldn’t be necessary. Though at times the momentum could be forcefully interrupted by a few who goes ooh-lala-wa-lala over the cast’s heartthrob but ain’t that exactly the thing that makes the entire package wholesome? :]

Might I add that the OST’s are an absolute must because it’ll make the audience relate as closely to as the feeling that is being conveyed. Therefore, I’ll be eagerly awaiting the highly anticipated Twilight but the prospect of reading the book simply seems bleak this time.

Sometimes I do pity Ichigo and Naruto because clearly, everyone could not be saved. There is a choice as to who and how many can be rescued while the remaining left are bound for the sacrificial pit. This is why words with the pretext of asserting everyone to feel equally at ease, where one might say ‘if possible, none will be left out because Ohana means family’. It’s just beyond every daring imagination that they could put it that way when the kelefeh’s (aka sidekicks) were axed. Though you all might say it is as double edged as it could be but if you really cared about them why didn’t you pick them? Why? There isn’t a need to explain why because even a child knows how firmly a yes or no can mean. That’s just how wide the differences are, and it all comes down to it.

*psst Josh, you don’t know how wrong you were when you said I really wanted to leave. More than anything else, I wanted everyone to be saved.

An official warm welcome to Kev whom last week had 5 days worth of classes from 9 am - 8 pm in a row. Of course I was playing it down when I said I was more lifeless, but you know very well I'd really cry if I had to endure that. Like, really! Well, what else can I say but good luck and have fun doubling the effort to study to get paid very well such that your future soccer team won't live in hunger :].

Anyway, a lot of other reasons apart from it being holiday made me stayed wide awake for about 25 hours. Okay, I did close my eyes for sometime in between that (I also wonder exactly how long was that actually, for a 400,000 score was obtained in Lumines 2 insane mode) before stumbling into MV's Jusco, in which I swear has the largest varieties of groceries I have ever seen! So many foreign people also, especially the Japs. There was this couple walking pass while I was checking out some cute and unique sake bottles... and it was very clear to me that they said, 'arigatou gozaimasu' immediately followed by 'kimchi! kimchi!' in which was very strange. So I was left there wondering if they were either Japanese or Korean to begin with but perhaps they could just be locals muttering whatever foreign word they could come out with in order to turn a few head around too, haa. But I was satisfied because I found this imported candy, or chewing gum to be exact which turned out to be pretty cheap among all the other ones. Well at first I decided to just grab something reasonably well priced to try among the many options available, but as it turns out... I've regularly bought and ate it since 10 years ago, omg! Now I know why it went missing as it was no longer sold in the normal runcit stores and the most freaky thing is that its from Korea, haa! Now talk about fate. :]

I tumbled on my bed as soon as I reach home though, and I had a dream which in my opinion should have happened a very long time ago? Yeah, this is actually about my Standard 5-6 best bud, Sam Chan Jian How (see, I can even remember his full name) whom I would be ashamed to admit losing contact with after we went to separate secondary schools. Back then there wasn't a decent internet connection available for my leisure and apparently I think even ICQ wasn't popularised yet, so I'm trying to console myself that it was all expected to be. Well, I had a housephone (like everyone else, durh) so I guess that is why I hurriedly wrote my number on a crumpled piece of paper to give it to standard 6 Sam but you know what....I wasn't able to because the car I was in drove off as fast as it could (but this was not what happened in the cold hard facts la). Its not that I don't want to la, Sheen...

I'm so sorry-hontoni sumimasen Ivan, I really didn't know and when you come back for holidays you can claim from me a very decent lunch to sort of compensate a little. As of the meantime, good luck for the remaining papers. (though he prob won't see this at all, which was why I'd dare to make such an offer because the fact is that you can't claim something which you don't know was being offered right? I'm so genius /devilish grin. :]

Because if I really care and wanted to, it is obvious that I would have made an effort too right? Apparently so, I guess.

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Sungha Jung - Fields Of Gold

As soon as I found this young budding artiste accidentally on youtube, I knew spot on at that moment I just had to feature him in my blog, something in which I had never done before. Sung-ha Jung is a 13 year old + Korean guitar prodigy specialised in fingerpicking...a style similar as to how a 'Guqin' is played. Though some critics were harsh to say that he does not exhibit much emotion when playing I think the sounds that he was creating has more emotions than a face could contain. It's best to see it for yourself. :]

Thanks to his music I was able to direct any excessive stress to the right direction and not be consumed by it all. haa. After watching Nodame Cantabile, its actually quite awesome to witness a genius instrument prodigy to actually be in action, lol! Thanks to my trusty download manager I managed to grab and illegally download a couple of his songs in .mp3 from various sites, imeem included, hee. What to do, I'm desperate for my own enjoyment. I posted this one above for a sneak preview and if it intrigues you all, you can search in youtube and experience it for starters. Then, if you'd like to, .mp3 files can be obtained from me. :]

Though I have to admit, seeing a young boy completely outclassing myself does not help my already inferior feelings, haa. Apparently, when he grows up it is said that all the girls would go wild over him shouting 'Oopa!' like the world's at stake. Sigh, envy envy. Did I mention that he's Korean? Uwaa.

It’s been such a long time since I last posted but maybe this time I’ll try to make sure I don’t disappear again. There are many ways in which an individual can choose to resolve their problems. In a survey conducted by my first year unit coordinator aka physics lecturer, the first years were required to rank themselves based on various situations of how would they tackle them. And that would categorise them students into either the ‘head-on brave’ type, ‘analytical but sits on the fence’ type, or ‘the evasive and peace loving’ types. Conventionally, I’d find myself to be in more of the latter, hence explaining the entire absence. Though, I’d like to say I do not acknowledge that the tough times can simply be casted away by a mere click of deletion and with no particular reference to anyone, a break occasionally could be a wise choice. :]

Oh, to those whom I’ve always professed to be a natural Buddhist while in the meantime practising none of its beliefs? I don’t think I could be loosely labelled as practising freethought either because I do hold my spiritual beliefs and morals to quite a high extent, although it may not seem like it. Under certain circumstances, I’d never possibly imagine myself as a family person with strong faith in ties but since I’m the no# best potential father as voted by fellow facebook-ians, its freaky to say that the more I try to laugh it away the more I think it will occur! Haa. I think I now understand how older people can hold on to their religion ever so closely as they get mellowed and lonelier... but these fanatical teens? By all means no offence, but I will consult someone because I’m really curious to know. :]

I probably am asking this for the umpteenth time much to the dismay of everyone, but please do tell me what else I can do to prepare myself for the harsh and cruel world during these holidays. Though I may not get the chance or ingredients to cook when I get there, but practise wouldn’t harm. So two days ago I started surfing the net for recipes on the classic ‘fah sang juk’ which translates to groundnuts porridge. Well, it was a suddenly inspired effort (also due to the fact that I was bored to hunger) so although some listed grand ingredients like oysters and clams, I had to omit them and mix and match with what I had. The one thing that I regretted not having were the must-have-scallops, in which I searched ever so thoroughly in the fridge but much to my disappointment mom told me that it wasn’t stocked since a while ago. As this was the first time, there were obviously flaws like the peanuts not being soft enough (this is because I only soaked them for 3 hours and not overnight, what to do I’m so hungry and gluttonous) and there weren’t any substantial flavour other than the chicken seasoning I used (again, blame the scallops). However, I still treat it as an overall success because now I’m getting nods compared to last time when mom said my salads were too sour for her liking. In which I would still defend because me thinks it taste good enough. And the best part is no one in my household is anywhere near the vegetable person I am so I can have it all to myself, haa! I shall experiment more on making some hearty meals and at the same meantime, get to put on weight as well. That is definitely on my list. :]

At times, I do feel I’m constantly disappointing the people around me and everyone seems to be frustrated because I don’t know who I am. But I’d like to take this opportunity to thank those whom stayed and took the effort to and not dishearten them anymore. Hence, the garden makes a comeback to give back. This may be something new but pictures will start to flow in if I figure out the blogspot format and get a decent camera. :]