Garden of Eden

Ouch. Painful muscle aches since Saturday. Bruised leg. I'm not sure if I can do this anymore.

NTU sucks, which would most likely mean I'm heading over to Monash. Holidays cut short till July. Oh well, maybe I'd see familiar faces there. Mikki, Sonya, CJ, Selva.. lets see. Who else ah?

I found myself in very similiar scenes from Grey's ( which I haven't been downloading recently. Drat, I'm missing out on some good humour ) I saw multiple beds with curtains just like in Dr. Baileys Clinic. I saw the surgery board, with a nurse erasing and scribbling on it. One thing for sure, there wasn't any hot nurse ( compliments to the high amounts of tudung worn ) and neither was there any McSteamy. =(

But more importantly, the doctors here have absolutely no compassion at all. And they speak broken english. Which could hardly be their fault, considering the patients aren't that well versed themselves. I've seen the obvious hardship of some. Suddenly all the glitz and glamour of the rich and famous meant zero.

6 freaking hours. And no food for I don't know how many hours. Pissed I am. Annoyed and irritated as well. But I shall not snap. Promise is a promise.

A tribute to Mr. Mu ( and slightly for Seo lah. Pity him ). If not for you, my chem would be long gone into the drain. Thank you for being unlike Seo, and knowing when or how much pressure to put on me. Had to look up Mu in the dark ballroom. Without specs, all I see were figures passing me. But that almost bright pink shirt instantly recognised. I couldn't look him in the eye, because I know I might cry. Looks like I won't be sitting in his class anymore. Haha, I remembered the times when Mu first came into class. Like a military officer. Strict and tough as a shell. So not true =P

One section to rant. It took me 5 minutes to visit the washroom. And my blazer was gone. My keychain was stolen. And then I was almost robbed. I have such lovely classmates, I know -_-. Erine, you take care too.

Fuck you, whoever it is for stealing my keychain. Bloody fucktard.

I need to leech someone's prom pictures. I don't have =(.

OH. Almost forgot. Some smart ass was peeing in the toilet. But convieniently forgot to close the door. And yours truly were so lucky to think its empty, gladly pushed the door and almost went in. Then I noticed there's a person in it. What the crap, exactly. I apologised once, and he did twice. Thank you, I think I rugi more for that to happen to me. Pfft.

I'm think I'm nice. Mostly. If I wanted to. To be nice for the sake of being nice, or for the sake of being treated nice. It has lost its meaning. Nice huh, yeah right. Niccceee.

I had this weird dream. It is dangerous to feel so much for something, for it being harder to let go. Even more dangerous to have one relationship which is more important to yourself than the other. But frankly, how can such feelings be entirely equal for there is no fine line for something so abstract? whatever larh. Ah, muscle man. I always knew what you said. And I really hate it. But I still love the people in the class. There goes the saying with love comes hate huh. well, something snapped me out of the dream I was having - Snow Patrol's never gonna fall in love again.

Disclaimer : In no way have I implied anything which violates any sensitive issues like racism. Whatever written and read, contains some truth and some not. Therefore, it should be deemed fictional, but not purely. And I'm not nice all the time. I'm can be selfish too, just like everyone else.

I tried to do more econs past years, but its the last paper man. If there were any gas left, its finishing. Fast. So a brief nap made up for some much required energy, but sadly at the cost of more practise on questions lah. And then I realised I had to leave for college in 15 minutes time. Bath, chuck in notes, and change. Off I go.

Seeing college for possibly the very last time, I made my way to the lifeless library atmostphere...and I find no one. Omg, not even a single person from my class. Swt, might as well finish up the most two recent papers la. And then dave came. And the rest of them. Sheen was waving at me but I was bluring. Sorry lah, thats as far as my vision could get. Lousy jin han had lan ci in front of me. Hmph, pointing out answers like that! Grr...fine. I know I won't do well. Just fail la, then I know Sien owes me lunch. Lunch at Ms. Read's ok? I havent try XD

Now that the exams are over, I can finally cut my hair. And my nails. And shave. I suppose its gross la, unkept hair, long nails and excessive facial hair. But its a form of superstition. Tennis players believe that during their in victory streak, they shouldnt shave. So that they retain their current hot form, or so to speak. Cough, cough. I hereby announce that I shed of 4kg from my skeletal frame during this 3 weeks. I dont know how la, but no eating disorders, thank you. Just..the sheer exam effects. Its birthday for Vince, which I promised to compensate, considering how busy I was during that stretch of time.And then Sonya. Jeff. Kevin. Wallet getting sucked dry. Bleh.

Prom? Simple and formal. Wont dress to impress. Nothing flashy.

Redang? I need something suitable. Don't wanna end up wearing speedos. ( Much to mar's delight, or dismay )

And since Asia.net's connection is ever so sucky, I shall say I have recieved ur message. I wont have any comments section, many thanks to my laziness, but maybe a tagboard. See first lah. And since everyone else scored horrible for my entry exam ( Vince disqualified for his foolishness ) the graph shall be lowered. Sien top-scorer, proud? heh. Meredith may be hot, but there are many other factors influencing the choice as well ;P. I didnt verbally wish you good luck every paper la, but rest assured I did for the whole exam.

So basically, A levels concluded. It feels so sad to have dave ask me to forgive his misdoings =/. Not that I remember he did any, but dont say things like that larh. Chill, we still will see each other. Or maybe not. Swt. Have you ever want so much so badly, and when you finally achieved it, it doesnt feel so great anymore. I wanted to finish so fast, I ended up getting more tired than ever. So yeah, no KLCC or partying.

I'm staring out into the sky,

The miles are getting longer, it seems

These places and faces are getting old,

Well I'm going home =)

The last ten day study break was quite productive, maybe not in Jin Han's terms.. but I'm proud to announce a turnover from fail to something better for chem =D. Did 90% of past years, and nearly all 48+ and above, fuiyoh! And very bangga.

Until I reached May/June 07 of course. Having not touched colourimetry, labelling bacteria eating copper ridiculous and underestimating buckyballs took a toll on me. I think I almost got the whole question of that paper chromotagraphy wrong. Siennie who was getting frustrated all over convieniently allowed me to compare our plotted graphs. Identical. But later I realised I did a mistake in determining the correct scale, and another mistake in plotting according to the correct scale. There goes two mistakes cancelling each other off, lucky me XD.

I might be accused of being insensitive in saying this, but you're a person who I would never thought would be on a low point. Maybe I'm too used with all those smiles and happy attitude, picturing a depressed you don't really seem to make much sense. If there is something bothering you, please don't say it's nothing. Because it comes from you, it only gets me more worried. So no matter how sucky my advice can get, I was there with two good pair of ears. I may know a bit of you, or guess a little, but intuition only gets that far. Although I expected a more major problem, don't break. Cause then I'll crack. Don't ever feel left out, you still have Patrick =).

Basically this exam stuff is really getting to me. I already have a full collection of dreams about the lecturers, which was nicely completed by Ms. Esther few days ago. Weirdo I am. Vince's birthday in a weeks time, and I lost money. Real bad timing -.-. Pigfish is busy with his Piggy, Siennie is busy with Mr.JT, Bambi is busy with ahem, Muscle Man is busy with Jacqui and even Sonya is busy with finals...omg no one has time for me anymore. Greeno is also busy trying to mug econs, even him doesnt have time for himself. The only thing that keeps me going,... are my sweets. All hail trebor sour plum sweets!

37.5% of A2 done. This reminds me of maple -.-. I don't know how I miraculously survived those long hours, but it wont be soon before long. I mean hello, anyone realised prom is this month? Also REDANG underway! No parental control for four days, quality time with classmates to top things up. White sandy beaches, cool refreshing air, pristine waters, and nothing better than a nice shade of tan. Mmmmmmm, a dream about to get real. Yes, YOU there. This time, YOU should feel left out. HMPH =PpP