These days are tiresome tired. Trials in 3 weeks(!) but I'm feeling sick tired, pissed off, emo and want to be alone. Actually, I like the latter ones...just not trials =.=. And if there was anything I want to be saved from, it's that HUGELY stacked econs notes lying on my desk. It is not tasty nor yummylicious, I cannot mug them to produce not one, but 2 friggin flawless essays.
I did 17 episodes of Grey's Anatomy Season 3 in 5 days. The much emo-er, funnier, and worth the guilthy pleasures in comparison to...House. Seriously, having interns sleeping around with doctors are way better than a crippled one bossing others around. And GA makes people tear/cry, like I did for several episodes. I guess that would be a testament on how good that show is, for being able to reach out to it's audience.
I have always looked out for the best interest of my friends, regardless of everyone. But still, to have my line of friendship questioned by people whom does not understand dissapoints me, if not entirely angry. I've tried to explain but no, it doesnt seem to make sense. So maybe I should give up and let go. It hurts to have all the trust that I've put, just to find out that I am not a friend because I don't talk to you always, I am not a friend because I don't do things with you, and that I am not a friend because I wasn't there. It isn't realised that there is other people, the 'outcasts' who needs some company. Furthermore, you have the popular company with you, so I am not needed. I really am not needed, because you never made me feel that I was.
To have that trust violated, I was expected to pretend that things were ever so lovely? And instead, it was I that have changed when I stopped calling and when I stopped talking. How is it fair to have it put on me that way?
The curent big question is, how has college been? (or will be)...Hmmm, I dont know. I haven't had any answers from those who asked me. I mean, that question arised because something went wrong right? Because a question of such isn't something to be brought up at a totally random time. Should I be worried? Should I step in and help, for I am a friend of theirs? I would have but that just isn't something that I would be sure of nowadays. I'm tired and I've had enough. I'm downright fed up. So is there a last reason to make this last for as long as it could?
I did 17 episodes of Grey's Anatomy Season 3 in 5 days. The much emo-er, funnier, and worth the guilthy pleasures in comparison to...House. Seriously, having interns sleeping around with doctors are way better than a crippled one bossing others around. And GA makes people tear/cry, like I did for several episodes. I guess that would be a testament on how good that show is, for being able to reach out to it's audience.
I have always looked out for the best interest of my friends, regardless of everyone. But still, to have my line of friendship questioned by people whom does not understand dissapoints me, if not entirely angry. I've tried to explain but no, it doesnt seem to make sense. So maybe I should give up and let go. It hurts to have all the trust that I've put, just to find out that I am not a friend because I don't talk to you always, I am not a friend because I don't do things with you, and that I am not a friend because I wasn't there. It isn't realised that there is other people, the 'outcasts' who needs some company. Furthermore, you have the popular company with you, so I am not needed. I really am not needed, because you never made me feel that I was.
To have that trust violated, I was expected to pretend that things were ever so lovely? And instead, it was I that have changed when I stopped calling and when I stopped talking. How is it fair to have it put on me that way?
The curent big question is, how has college been? (or will be)...Hmmm, I dont know. I haven't had any answers from those who asked me. I mean, that question arised because something went wrong right? Because a question of such isn't something to be brought up at a totally random time. Should I be worried? Should I step in and help, for I am a friend of theirs? I would have but that just isn't something that I would be sure of nowadays. I'm tired and I've had enough. I'm downright fed up. So is there a last reason to make this last for as long as it could?
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