Garden of Eden

Bad things do come in bulk. It catches you when you are most unaware, and ultimately suck out ALL the fun your having. Tsk tsk, sad right but I'm not here to whine. In fact, I'm not gonna say anything because I don't think I have any obligation to. I mean, what am I suppose to say at times like this? I can't lose my grip, not now.

I'm truly sorry for your dad's passing. Even more sorry when I only knew it ONE WEEK later. And thats when I couldn't even offer my condolences for the fear that it might continue to upset you. I can't say I know how you feel Vince, but perhaps nearly there. Cancer might be hereditary, so are heart problems. Maybe we would one day suffer from it eventually.

Yes yes, it seems like hearty Kit has been enjoying lately. Actually, not surprising for a person who does leisure smoking and casual drinking to socialise. But don't till you get drunk. Because what if...those kind of accidents happen xD. Right, everything is possible now since the boundaries to freedom has been oliberated. And I certainly wouldn't want to hear you wailing over skype out of a sudden. It's freak-ay ya know?

Trials keeps popping into my head every 10 seconds, its really starting to get irritating. I can't revise when I get headaches from being irritated. And that's when I resort to sudoku to rid off that headache, something supposedly educational which I'm comparatively better at. But encountering a diabolical sudoku is such a pain. I get even more irritated. Damn such accelerating effects. Gah.

Stupid Seo and his turn-off-smokey voice. How un-sexy. Haha, pity Bri for getting his private message(s) read out in class. But really, why oh why did you send it to him in the first place? Out of all people from your contacts, it had to be him swt. Therefore, I hereby declare that the usage of okay, kay and k at the end of a sentence has been banished from my vocabulary. Not if it is as a one word reply though, hey at least it doesn't sound 10 times worse like how gross Seo puts it!

Ah, now for completely random and irrelevant information about the blogster here. I don't know why I'm posting this, but it gets my mind off chemistry a little.

1) I sometimes can't sleep without my bolster. Not because I wouldn't have something to hump on -_- ...I don't know, really.

2) If I dont seem to notice you from a distance of a few feet, dont overreact. I'm not ignoring you. The reason as to why my eyesight is bad would probably be that three scratches in my left cornea. I might have been on general anaesthetic. Yes, I had surgery. I think. Sheesh, I really can't remember.

3) My brother is a shopaholic. Which is why I get to steal and wear new stuffs ocassionally. Until he orders me not too hehe.

4) Subconsciously, I may act bimbo. But its really on purpose. I secretly laugh seeing how others react to it ;P.

5) I use to be involved in long jumps. One that represented the house somemore. Even I can't believe I'm that person. Not anymore now.

6) I hate getting all tanned up. I think my tan lines make me look ugly. Like a zebra.

7) I recall being almost dead from a roller coaster ride. No more coasters for me.

8) At the age of 6, I called those colourful patches seen in a puddle of water mixed with oil 'monsters'. And when I told my mom, she asked where ;D

9) I quit piano classes because I hated my teacher. Same goes for taekwondo.

I also remember thinking there was a higher form of pattern in our everyday lives. Like, luck was bad today. It will be good tommorow. But fate really doesn't change. Ish children, heh. Those were the long gone days.

These days are tiresome tired. Trials in 3 weeks(!) but I'm feeling sick tired, pissed off, emo and want to be alone. Actually, I like the latter ones...just not trials =.=. And if there was anything I want to be saved from, it's that HUGELY stacked econs notes lying on my desk. It is not tasty nor yummylicious, I cannot mug them to produce not one, but 2 friggin flawless essays.

I did 17 episodes of Grey's Anatomy Season 3 in 5 days. The much emo-er, funnier, and worth the guilthy pleasures in comparison to...House. Seriously, having interns sleeping around with doctors are way better than a crippled one bossing others around. And GA makes people tear/cry, like I did for several episodes. I guess that would be a testament on how good that show is, for being able to reach out to it's audience.

I have always looked out for the best interest of my friends, regardless of everyone. But still, to have my line of friendship questioned by people whom does not understand dissapoints me, if not entirely angry. I've tried to explain but no, it doesnt seem to make sense. So maybe I should give up and let go. It hurts to have all the trust that I've put, just to find out that I am not a friend because I don't talk to you always, I am not a friend because I don't do things with you, and that I am not a friend because I wasn't there. It isn't realised that there is other people, the 'outcasts' who needs some company. Furthermore, you have the popular company with you, so I am not needed. I really am not needed, because you never made me feel that I was.

To have that trust violated, I was expected to pretend that things were ever so lovely? And instead, it was I that have changed when I stopped calling and when I stopped talking. How is it fair to have it put on me that way?

The curent big question is, how has college been? (or will be)...Hmmm, I dont know. I haven't had any answers from those who asked me. I mean, that question arised because something went wrong right? Because a question of such isn't something to be brought up at a totally random time. Should I be worried? Should I step in and help, for I am a friend of theirs? I would have but that just isn't something that I would be sure of nowadays. I'm tired and I've had enough. I'm downright fed up. So is there a last reason to make this last for as long as it could?