Garden of Eden

Thoughts...and more thoughts. That was what I spent my current holidays on. And no Sheen, I'm not being a spoil sport, having requested to be saved from the Gong Xi onslaught. It's just during all the Chinese New Year celebrations hype. being surrounded by sickening CNY music (yes, that Gong Xi Gong Xi Ni Yat one) really really gets on my nerves.

I think I'm beginning to become a threat at the gambling table. Most people, including my friends would assume that I'm a piece of easy meat. But halt, don't go thinking I would give my angpao so easily, heh. This year's grande total of winnings are ... (drums) - RM3...yes, thats a negative profit. Why am I still being so contented on losing money? Coz we five friends played poker, and stakes are high you know! 50 cents for base and per card, it was good enough that I almost break even and had no losses or profit. It was really exciting to be able to pretend (hence, the name poker face) that you have really godly cards and by raising the stakes, you could force your opponents to give up all the money at the table =).

Waiting for us after gambling was ... ta-da, Dim Sum at 1.30 am! Hehe, ha kao and chicken porridge...totally yummylicious. The best part would probably be that Sean decided to be responsible for the bill, reason being that he is already earning an income. Oh dear, speaking of which...these are friends that I've known for 12 years. It reminds me how lucky I am to have such company (or to be considerably old) even after all those tedious schooling years. And when I backtrack to those times, it almost seemed a short while ago we talked about almost every other fun, crazy and nonsensical stuffs. While everyone is already driving, studying degrees, or working...I really wonder where do I stand. There is this bit inside me that fear growing up, because of the weight to excell as an individual in the light of many people.

But if I don't, I know I wont be able to keep up with all my friends and eventually, lose them forever. Now, we wouldn't want such things to happen right? So cheers to them people, whom I've known since primary...and not to forget me close college friends as well, hehe.

Right, it has been a while. A little too long maybe, but really...there isn't much time for me to blog anyway since college started. Plenty of things would have happened in a month's time, but maybe I could use my some sort of photographic memory ability to lay it all out in words.

The start to 2007 was marred for being absent from the first class of Economics, because I was late...so late in fact, I decided to skip class to save me the embaressment. I would have preferred to be dead with a beatle car in an accident than to show up 40 minutes late with a red flushing face, seriously. But other than that, every other minor common thing went rather well. Partly because I was feeling happier, and perhaps a little more chatty than usual. Oh well, the truth was I missed my classmates a lot...awww. Suh-weet right? Then there was the planned trip to Sunway Lagoon which inevitably got cancelled thanks to Mr. Mu, our star chemistry teacher who came to lectures with a very thick and scruffy beard hours after touching down at the airport. Excuse mua, but it almost seemed as if he was a terrorist that accomplished his mission to hijack a plane from India.

I didn't mind much anyway, because I wasn't keen to visit a place which I haven't been to in a decade. NOT because AS results are released the very next day, NOT because we would be scrutinising or be scrutinised among ourselves...but I had a more valid reason to choose not to go. Secret, period hehe.

Oh, I got some favourable results alright. But the things that followed weren't so nice to witness. However, there was this one statement which was made that got me real irritated. Honestly, it was boiling hot. So listen up clearly, if you think you are superior to everyone else, you got it way wrong, you were so deluded by the suckups till the obvious had become oblivious. So save your smart comments to yourself unless you can actually top what others had done in reality. Don't even try to bullshit me with your sob stories about others not communicating well if you continue to be that way. No one would want to befriend a person that expects them to approach him always right? And you would go critisising them behind their backs. Just stop, I've had enough of hypocrits.

Also don't even dare ask me why am I being cold and bring up those times which we were closer together, on how we were so alike and best friends forever. I hate it when people demand to have what I have, so get off my back. Honestly, it wasn't that close to begin with. You had never listened to my opinions because your arrogance wouldn't let you trust me, I'm certainly being taken for granted. In truth, my best friend in the last year and a half has been no one but myself, when I was often forced to sew and patch myself up. Those times are when I got closer to myself to know who I really am. And you even had the guts to raise your voice on others when it is clearly your fault. Don't use your pity tales as an excuse, it is pathetic enough already to be seen letting your temper out on everyone. Do that again to any of my friends, I will stop you, and I mean it.

My status - not so good now, drat damn those discontenment. I'm not emo, but rather addicted to Bleach. It's so interesting, I couldn't stop watching. Till I finished 50 episodes in 3.5 days. But I will be patient, after all.. I will get to watch those next week anyway yay! Yawn, I'm feeling tired already after a long day... time for bed. Tata!