Garden of Eden

Could I no longer feel sincerity, or is it just clouded at the moment, so faded till its existence negligible? You wanted things that you despise from me, I had given them up and letting it go. Better now than then, right. I couldn't live with lies and pressure, not anymore. It feels lighter now, without such burden to carry. No more being judged into sides for every movement or decision. In fact, it is so carefree till the point I would want to just dance away in heavy rain. Wonderful to be able to feel raindrops, but even better if there was someone to share with. Maybe just someday...

I didn't realise how much I missed FF-X until I viewed an AMV of it featuring Jason Mraz's You and I, Both. It is so emotional and touching, I could tear right now. Somehow, I'd hope to be Tidus someday having those moments, even if I were soon to discover that I was nothing but a mere dream and non-existing. But I'm well aware that it is only fantasy, huh.

Yuna: Stay with me, until the end please?
Tidus: Not until the end... always.

When I was younger, people refer to me as the 'eraser' - white, bouncy and pure. Till it gets dirty when corrupted by unhealthy surroundings as time passes. And when I grew older, I was a 'pencil' - nerdy, brown pencil with some little dark secret inside. That was then, I'm now an ultra thin, blackened 'lead'. The point would be...I need to eat more. Which was why I bought nachos, kinder buenos, chocholate muffins and sparkling juice to go with them. But drat, it doesnt seem like a healthy meal. Not that it really matters when maximum satisfaction is achieved while watching and laughing at Anaconda 2 lol. Movies are twice more fun with junk food, thrice with sparkling wine *_*. And here's to one of my favourite songs;

Whoops, tennis did turn up to be fun. Obviously, because I played much better than the previous days. And there was a FREE ice cold Milo booth present. It couldn't be more convienient right, a pure public good just when you needed it. NO rivalry, NO excludability, heh. Maybe I'm fickle, but aren't all Librans suppose to be?

Somehow, I find myself attracted to movies with little kids being friends with animals. Usually, I think such relationships are really touching and very deep, if not cute, even if the animal would be a fox...or a pig. Like hello-w, how can a baby fox and piglett NOT be adorable? And if you dont agree, better stop discriminating or I wont friend you anymore, hmph.

Let's see...1,2,3; is the number of person this blog is known too. Blogging is hard, especially when it comes to putting down sensitive and emo issues while the whole world has access to it. It's similiar to having your diary, with the public reading it openly. Totally a breach of privacy, and that's a no-no for me. So that number wouldn't increase more anytime soon, if everyone keeps quiet about it ;P. Keep the gradient a good +0.2, will ya? Hush then.

Tennis in less than 4 hours. Something which I dont really look forward as much as before. Once upon a time, I would have sleepless nights the day before each lesson. But now, it seems like a chore, or a responsibility of a heavy burden. The things in which I sought after to enjoy tennis were no longer there. And it would soon be a time where we even stop trying at all, when it gets tiring or energy-sapping. Rest is much needed, and that is exactly what holidays are for, aren't they? Neh, think again.

Nope, I'm still the same person as I have been in slightly a year ago. Same core, but just maybe different accessories. Ok lah, lets just get straight to the point. Why this blog even existed is solely based on the following reasons; there's no one to play DotA with in Blueserver or holidays just get pretty boring in time. And yes, why don't I go out to enjoy while I can? Well the thing is... I'm broke, dotz. But actually, I kinda like staying home. You would be able look messy and wear comfortable home clothes. Or even nothing without anyone looking, heh.

While everyone else have flown of somewhere to someplace spelling fun-fun-fun, I am here posting for your reading pleasure. So thank me, or be gone ;( . No wait, actually it ain't that bad at home. There's still plenty of socialising that I can do online, or even possibly playing monopoly and UNO with my little sister when the connection is down. Whenever I feel like having some precious me-time, tada ... OFFLINE. I know I'm so in control of my life, whee away.

Here I am, with a pre-blogging post. Feeling pretty contented now, having spent the last hour setting up most of the basic design. It wasn't that easy ya know, luckily I'm equiped with some basic HTML knowledge. Or I would be utterly dumbfounded at the sight of such scripts, huahuahua. Not too long till my official first post though, just wait...till I awake yet again, heh.